calm before the storm

I am currently sitting on my porch up north. Its really muggy and hot and I am feeling quite uncomfortable with my sunburn. So far the trip has been quite enjoyable. Nothing really surpasses laying on an intertube on a lake for hours at a time, just reflecting on your life and things that have seemed monumental. Soon we are going to drive to lake michigan and have a picnic, and then go to brownwood. I think I will buy some jams for my oma. They make these delicious strawberry jams right there in brownwood. I like to get the honey straws. They also make the best homemade lemonade. I am starting to get hungry so I suppose I will end this here.

the whole truth and nothing but the truth

so help me god. i have been writing a lot lately. the feeling is empowering when you write something that you are genuinely satisfied with. so lately besides thinking of things to write, i have thought about the direction my life is headed. i don't know what i want to be, where i want to be, who i want to be. but as i walked to the mailbox today i had a thought that maybe what i will be is just going to hit me one day, like destiny. maybe one day i will be out somewhere in some public place, and be asked to star in a movie and move to hollywood. hey, its possible. someone will find me as something more than just another face.

love letters and farewells

I wish that we still wrote love letters like they did back in the 1700's.


"Adieu - Dearest, most beloved little wife - Take care of your health - and don't think of walking into town. Do write and tell me how you like our new quarters - Adieu. I kiss you millions of times." - Mozart

How quaint.
I am lucky if I get an unpretentious goodnight, see you tomorrow.

I keep trying to stay awake long enough to read these long paragraphs but my eyes keep crossing and my head feels warm. I can't seem to figure out what he's getting out of this. Some people literally thrive off of ruining other people's happiness to keep themselves alive. It is really, really quite depressing. i let you in my life with more space than you deserved to occupy.